Afraid

Posted by on February 1, 2013 in Five Minute Friday | 46 comments

Joining my friends and Lisa-Jo this morning for Five Minute Friday. If you’re new here (welcome!) the rules are simple: Write, don’t edit, link your post to her page, and then share the encouragement like wildfire. You can do that, I know you can. The prompt this week is, Afraid.

Go.

It’s been a fight these last couple of weeks, and this week in particular. The energy behind this crazy dream swells and crests, and I’ve experienced every wild range of emotion, and not known what to do with myself at times.

I’ve stared down a mountain and been shaken up a few times in my efforts to just put one foot in front of the other–and at the root of it, I know it’s been fear. I’ve battled fear for what seems like forever, and this one step, this obedience has been the ultimate showdown, faith over fear, hope and faith holding hands and keeping back the demons of self-doubt and shame.

There is a moment for all of us, when He calls us out on the line, to walk the tightrope of trust. Even though we don’t see Him, His hand holds us steady. All we have to do is believe–like Peter, when for a moment he walked on top of the water. But fear got to him and immediately, it says, immediately, he sank. And Jesus asked him, “Why did you doubt?” 

That’s the question I’ve run into repeatedly this week, and God has asked it and answered it for me, by way of the blessings He has offered in return for my very weak faith. I’m still learning. Still overcoming through the strength of the Overcomer.

Tonight, I have peace, not fear, not dread, just peace. I know without a doubt, God will do what He set out to do.

I will walk on the water to Him, I will not look down–He will not fail me.

 

My very first Monthly newsletter just went out with the link to my new Book, Holey, Wholly, Holy: A Lenten Journey of Refinement, in it. If you haven’t signed up for a copy, there’s still time ;) 

 

 

  • JulieJordanScott2

    I once had a dream I was walking on water and I was so afraid to look into up, above the moon’s reflection on the very dark ocean waves. It has stayed with me for years! When my babies were in preschool I was in MOPS. Once I joked about the spacing of my babies was that way because I wanted to stay in MOPS as long as I could. Congrats on your book – how very very very exciting! Woot Woot many times over… thank you for being such a model of courage!

    • http://alwaysalleluia.com/ Kris Camealy

      Thank you Julie. I understand that feeling so well–He holds you, my friend, even as you tremble, he holds you firm. God bless you!!

  • Alia_Joy

    Oh goodness, I just wrote of the sinking the other day. Yes, that doubt and fear is indeed overwhelming when we are asked to step out onto waters we don’t control. But I am so glad you are resting in peace. Because you’re right. God will do what He will and you, for your obedience will see the reward. I’m so proud of you, friend and can’t wait to read your book. I am going to carve out time to enjoy it this weekend. Love to you, I’m so very excited to see what God is bringing.

    • http://alwaysalleluia.com/ Kris Camealy

      thank you, Alia Joy. I am praying for you and look forward to your thoughts on the book!!

  • http://simplystriving.wordpress.com/ Nikki

    (first, before I forget, I got my newsletter in my email! yay! it looks beautiful!!)

    and I so get this and Kris–you inspire me. with how you’ve gone through this whole process. We both know it’s Him in you that’s at work now, but wow…it’s a beautiful thing. I’m just so proud to call you friend.

    • http://alwaysalleluia.com/ Kris Camealy

      Nikki. What can I say> I pray the Lord brings us face to face, that I might hug your neck and tell you to your shining eyes, how grateful I am that you walk with me–that you walk with HIM! You are a ruby in the crown of the king, a precious jewel shining with His grace.

  • http://www.alifesurrendered.com/ Michele-Lyn

    Oh, Kris, He is so very pleased with you. I know that your success is as sure as your obedience to Him. And you have been faithful. And He is faithful and is faithful even when you are not. He shows up strong on behalf of those whose hearts are truly His. You are His. And the truth of His love and grace is getting ready to be released in this world. May He take your words — His words through you — to the ends of the earth for His glory! Love you!

    PS I am not sure you got to see I added a picture of your book after I published it. I am so looking forward to writing your post. I am not going to post it until next week, since I wrote for fmf. :)

    • http://alwaysalleluia.com/ Kris Camealy

      That is what I hear from Him–His pleasure. I can’t describe the feeling, but it’s definitely one of peace, knowing I have surrendered to His purposes, whatever may come. I am most fully His. Thank you for helping spread the word. Your friendship and prayers have gotten me through. Don’t ever doubt that.

  • http://dailyrefined.blogspot.com/ Leigh Kay

    He.Will.Not.Leave.You.

    Ever.

    I love your courage. I love your obedience. I love you intentionality with what is entrusted to you. Both in people and in dreams. Walk boldly friend. He is rewarding your faith in droves.

    • http://alwaysalleluia.com/ Kris Camealy

      Thank you, Leigh. Your kind words give me such strength. He will not leave us.

  • http://writingcanvas.wordpress.com/ Loni

    Oh yes … weak faith … stumbling along and learning and growing through Him. I am with you! :)

    • http://alwaysalleluia.com/ Kris Camealy

      Oh we;re always growing, aren’t we, Loni? Thank you, sweet friend. I pray the book blesses you! You have blessed me.

  • http://myfreshlybrewedlife.com/ Barbie

    Walking the tightrope of trust. Yes, that is so true. He calls us forth, and with shaking knees and trembling heart we come. Thank you, Kris, for your obedience to the Lord. I am so looking forward to reading your book.

    • http://alwaysalleluia.com/ Kris Camealy

      Barbie. My friend. You have been so gracious to me. I am praying for you as you read. May you find yourself right close to Jesus and may you go wherever He leads–unafraid.

  • http://twitter.com/grace_full_life Amy Hunt

    There’s no shame in this doubt, though. Or the fear. Remember that, friend. None at all. He allows it for such purpose. Truly.

    • http://alwaysalleluia.com/ Kris Camealy

      It is ALL for purpose, as you say. Those words continue to resonate deep in my heart, my friend. you don’t know how you’ve blessed me. Thank you.

  • http://www.creeksideministries.blogspot.com/ Linda Stoll

    ah … that ‘tightrope of trust’ … love that!

    • http://alwaysalleluia.com/ Kris Camealy

      ;) Thanks, Linda.

  • Sarah

    May God reward you for your faithfulness – with his peace and joy. You are an example of a faithful servant, and I’m so excited for what God is doing!!

    • http://alwaysalleluia.com/ Kris Camealy

      I already have what feels like a reward. I cannot begin to describe the joy in my heart today–it is truly a gift from Him. God is abundantly good, and He proves it to me, by weaving you into my story. XO

  • http://crystalstine.blogspot.com/ Crystal

    Yes! I have loved watching you walk bravely with head held high, arms stretched out to the One who keeps you balanced. You inspire. Kris, you have become such a true, sweet friend to me and I am thankful for you and your words. Time to celebrate!!

    • http://alwaysalleluia.com/ Kris Camealy

      Crystal, I could fill another notebook with another 1000 reasons I am thankful for you. You’ve blessed me in ways you don’t even know. Truly. Love you.

  • KimberlyCoyle

    Fear is at the root of too many things in my life. Love this reminder to trust, believe, and walk on water towards Him.

    • http://alwaysalleluia.com/ Kris Camealy

      Me too, Kimberly. It’s been a life-long journey to walk away from the fear. Praying you through, my friend.

  • Tonya Salomons

    This —> “I will walk on the water to Him, I will not look down–He will not fail me.” – This speaks to me – I will not look down – thank you for this!

    • http://alwaysalleluia.com/ Kris Camealy

      Don’t look down, Tonya. He is faithful–He’s got you!

  • StefanieYoungBrown

    Oh, Kris… How you’ve blessed and inspired me! Thank you for your faithfulness and your commitment to following the dream He’s designed for you.

    I love this quote: “I will walk on the water to Him, I will not look down–He will not fail me.” To that, I say a hearty AMEN:)

    • http://alwaysalleluia.com/ Kris Camealy

      Thanks Stephanie. Amen indeed. Just clinging tightly to His truth, and so grateful for your encouragement.

  • http://www.facebook.com/amy.c.corley Amy Carden Corley

    Hooray, you stepped out on the water with Him! It is His strength that keeps us walking on top of that water :). Bless you, sister!!

    • http://alwaysalleluia.com/ Kris Camealy

      It’s awesome out here on the water. God is ridiculously good!

  • Becky Daye

    Faith over fear- the ultimate showdown! Love that and so thankful that faith ALWAYS wins! So looking forward to reading your book and already rejoicing with you in how God wants to use it!!! Thankful that you have peace and thankful for YOU!

    • http://alwaysalleluia.com/ Kris Camealy

      Yes! Faith wins! :) Praise God!

  • http://www.amylearns.com/ Amy Tilson

    Thankful that you have the eyes and heart to see God at work and to follow in faith. Your fear is a sign to me that you have an awareness of the stakes – and they are huge, aren’t they? You inspire me to do more than I think I can. I’m so happy for you on this day that I’m sure has seemed forever away. Be blessed and enjoy every minute of the fruit of your labor. I can’t wait to read!

    • http://alwaysalleluia.com/ Kris Camealy

      Thank you, Amy, for your encouragement. I look forward to your thoughts on the book and I will be praying for you as you read.

  • http://www.facebook.com/karrilee.aggett Karrilee Aggett

    Loved this! Praying for you today… and excited at what all He has planned!

    • http://alwaysalleluia.com/ Kris Camealy

      Thank you, Kariee, I will take those prayers! :)

  • http://twitter.com/vickimichelle74 Vicki Thunstrom

    I loved your post and I can tell I’m going to love reading your book. I learned of it last night during the #FMFParty and right away I knew it was a message I need. He is bringing me through a season of learning to trust Him more fully. It is exciting and scary and wonderful!
    Bless you as you continue on the road with Him!

  • http://altarofheaven.wordpress.com/ arcelia

    Kris,
    I just started reading one hour ago and I am praising God for your obedience to have a ‘pen of a ready writer for the King’! I look forward to sharing a full review…but what I’ve read so far whispers ‘Truth in love’ and it is the love of God that compels us and leads to repentance. You won’t know this side of heaven the lost and Luke warm souls God will restore through these words He has given you to share. I join your prayer team today my sister…I’ll lift your arms and I see ‘Hallelujah, Alleluia’ with you here and later at the feet of Jesus in that glorious day!

    • http://alwaysalleluia.com/ Kris Camealy

      Thank you, Arcelia for your encouragement and prayers. Truly. You are a generous soul with a gift for encouragement. I thank God for you, and the kindness of your words. Bless you, my sister. You have blessed me with these words–with your heart for the Lord.

  • http://www.janiscox.com/ Janis Cox

    Kris,

    Awesome post – really – it is all about learning to trust – and then to do it again, and again.

    I love, ” this obedience has been the ultimate showdown, faith over fear, hope
    and faith holding hands and keeping back the demons of self-doubt and
    shame.”

    Facing your fears and walking through them anyway. Thanks to Jesus for blocking the demons.

    blessings
    Janis

  • http://twitter.com/CSElkins christie elkins.

    Love it. Your honesty in where God is taking you is thrilling! Beautiful post, girl!

  • http://www.razella.com/ RaZella

    Hello, I am dropping in from Lisa-Jo’s FMF link up. I love how you describe it as “the tightrope of trust”. Especially when we are in that sea of fear, it does feel like a tiny tightrope He calls us to step onto! Really enjoyed reading your post. :)

  • Amber

    Ahhh, I’m excited to read your book, Kris. Lent is one of my favorite seasons, and I was hankering for a good book last year and didn’t have one. Thank you so much for stopping by my blog and leaving your thoughts. I so appreciate your beautiful honesty here in the struggle with trust over fear.

    • http://alwaysalleluia.com/ Kris Camealy

      Praying for you as you read, Amber. I hope the words in the book encourage you and give you hope in this Lenten season of preparation and reflection. I’d love to hear your thoughts when you’ve finished reading.

  • http://www.elisapulliam.com/ Elisa Pulliam

    I love this line, ” I know without a doubt, God will do what He set out to do.” A truth to claim!

    • http://alwaysalleluia.com/ Kris Camealy

      Yes! Clinging to it, my friend.