Five Minute Friday

Belong

July 19, 2013

Amid the piles and chaos, neck deep in chores unfinished and meals always needing to be made, it’s a temptation to believe that this is not where I belong.

Not because I don’t love, but only because it overwhelms.

It feels a thousand percent wrong to give voice to that low growl, to admit that sometimes, it all feels like being in the wrong place at the wrong time.

It’s a lie that I’m tempted to believe when beds are wet in the night and directions must be repeated for the umpteenth time, when the macaroni boils over, and fightsย eruptย over the gagillionth toy in this house–that I was made for more than this–the worldly version.

In a world where stay at home mom’s are sometimes thought simple and perhaps even lazy, in a world that thinks staying home with the kids means playing all day or watching soaps and munching bon-bons, while wearing bunny slippers, I sometimes believe it myself–that maybe I don’t belong, that there’s more “out there” than in here.

But before I am deemed worst-mother-of-the year, I want to say that I don’t really believe this.
I don’t really feel it.

It drifts in on very hard days, a whisper of darkness in my ears, that makes me question God–and I realize that I am Eve.

Did God really say…

belong

This place, these four hearts I have the privilege of helping to mold, this mount everest of laundry I climb each week, and the million miles I put in, lapping around this house and up and down the stairs, this is right.

This is where I belong.

Because, I was made for more than this, I was made for heaven, and a small heaven can be here, with God here, with my children in my lap and at my feet, with my husband beside me and family prayers on the big bed.

God really said: yes, this for you, all of this–
It’s a gift, being here.

It is where I belong.

 

 

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37 Comments

  • Reply HopeUnbroken July 19, 2013 at 10:26 am

    yes, yes, yes! no matter what our circumstances, it is so easy to doubt. to think that we are doing other than what we should. even though deep down we know otherwise. standing in affirmation with you, sweet one. keep on keeping on! for the umpteenth time ๐Ÿ™‚
    steph

    • Reply Kris Camealy July 19, 2013 at 7:13 pm

      Thanks, Steph. It’s a blessing to be understood ๐Ÿ˜‰

  • Reply raayres July 19, 2013 at 10:30 am

    Beautiful writing. Your long sentences made me feel the rhythm of your days. Your turning point and realization, that yes, this is where you belong was timed just so I felt the depth of this truth. I’m glad you wrote today. I’m glad I landed here to read it.
    Thank you,
    Ruth

    • Reply Kris Camealy July 19, 2013 at 7:14 pm

      I am terrible with my long sentences. Sometimes, the punctuation just gets in the way, you know? Thanks for your encouragement ๐Ÿ™‚

  • Reply Rebecca Brandt July 19, 2013 at 10:33 am

    Oh sweet friend, those wet beds will eventually stay dry, but the night time will be filled with deep conversations – just when you thought your head could hit the pillow and yes – you are right.where.u.belong! Love you and your words that always speak to this Mama heart!

    • Reply Kris Camealy July 19, 2013 at 7:15 pm

      Yes, yes, I am sure of this. I know this is a season, and I am learning to live fully in each one. Love to you, my friend. I miss you.

  • Reply keltrinswife July 19, 2013 at 11:28 am

    Yup

  • Reply Amy L. Sullivan July 19, 2013 at 11:43 am

    While “wearing bunny slippers” Ha! Love how you can be both serious and hysterical all in one little combo package.

    • Reply Kris Camealy July 19, 2013 at 7:16 pm

      ๐Ÿ™‚ for the record, I don’t own any bunny slippers. Mine look more like Tinkerbell’s shoes, except they are pink. XO

  • Reply Lisa notes... July 19, 2013 at 12:07 pm

    I knew I belonged at home too, even though I also had those thoughts of wondering if something out there was more than in here. You’re doing a tremendous work; raising little ones is so important. Thanks for sharing.

    • Reply Kris Camealy July 19, 2013 at 7:16 pm

      Thank you Lisa. It’s so encouraging to hear from other Mom’s who get this.

  • Reply Mary Bonner July 19, 2013 at 12:29 pm

    Kris, this might be the most beautiful piece of writing about stay at home moms I’ve ever read. It brings tears to my eyes. I had the privilege of staying home too…while some days were hard, it was worth it. I love this my friend. Thank you for sharing your heart.

    • Reply Kris Camealy July 19, 2013 at 7:17 pm

      Mary, your words today have rested on my heart and felt like such a gift from God. Thank you for your warmth and friendship. You have no idea how blessed I feel to know you. Love you.

  • Reply Lori Harris July 19, 2013 at 12:30 pm

    Oh wow- my favorite link up so far this morning. And I don’t say that very often.
    And yes, you daughter of Eve, God really did say, this. All of this.
    Lovely, lovely, lovely!

    • Reply Kris Camealy July 19, 2013 at 7:17 pm

      Thank you, Lori. I am so thankful you stopped by to read. God bless you, new friend.

  • Reply Jennifer July 19, 2013 at 12:52 pm

    Sweet. Thank you. Needed those encouraging words today. As a stay at home mom I often fall victim to the lies of “there are better things…more happenings…our there” when really there is a lot going on right here…in our home.

    • Reply Kris Camealy July 19, 2013 at 7:18 pm

      Be encouraged, my friend. There is a lot happening at home. All of the very best.

  • Reply Julie Reynolds July 19, 2013 at 5:40 pm

    LOVE~~ LOVE~~ LOVE~~

  • Reply Christine- Fruit in Season July 19, 2013 at 5:56 pm

    Breathing this in.

    • Reply Kris Camealy July 19, 2013 at 7:18 pm

      Oh my friend. I know you understand this… Love you so.

  • Reply Michele-Lyn July 19, 2013 at 7:30 pm

    love… just love you <3 This mama loves this.

    • Reply Kris Camealy July 19, 2013 at 7:59 pm

      The feeling is mutual. I know I am in great company here. XO

  • Reply Ashlie July 19, 2013 at 7:40 pm

    Oh goodness. I have tears in my eyes. Just…no words really. Love it and love you. My heart needed this!

    • Reply Michele-Lyn July 19, 2013 at 7:44 pm

      so good, right? ๐Ÿ™‚ I just love her and you both!

    • Reply Kris Camealy July 19, 2013 at 8:02 pm

      humbled, Ashlie. praying for your Mama heart. Next April, at Refine, I will hug you tight. XO

  • Reply Rebecca July 19, 2013 at 7:50 pm

    Love this! Beautiful words spoke right to this mama’s heart.

  • Reply Denise Oldham July 19, 2013 at 8:01 pm

    beautiful.

  • Reply Mia July 19, 2013 at 8:41 pm

    Dear Kris
    Being a mom at home can be quite overwhelming. But one thing is for sure; it is hard work.
    Blessings XX
    Mia

  • Reply Stephani July 20, 2013 at 1:36 am

    I know you’ve heard it before, but you have the most important job in the world. Our country would be a much different place if more Mom’s stayed home and more Dad’s made it possible for that to happen. I’m not a mother, but I truly believe in what you do as a stay at home Mom!

  • Reply Caroline @UnderGod'sMightyHand July 20, 2013 at 2:16 pm

    Yes, Kris, I get that realization. Even though I get tired (I do) and need a break (I do), I LOVE being with my kids and it’s a true gift (though I have to remind myself sometimes! And that’s okay. We need renewal and reminders.).

  • Reply Debi Stangeland July 20, 2013 at 5:30 pm

    Beautiful tribute to one of the hardest jobs on earth. Thank you for sharing such wonderful and important thoughts with us today. Rock on!!

  • Reply Katie Phillips July 21, 2013 at 12:12 am

    Beautiful words from one mama to the rest of us mamas who need to hear it as well.

  • Reply Sarah Speer Scales July 25, 2013 at 3:28 am

    This is my third time to read this is the last week. Thanks! I needed to be encouraged!

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