Faith, Family, Grace, Growth

Identity Crisis

What happens when part of your identity is revealed to be a lie? Who are you then? For years I allowed my identity to be defined by things other than who Christ says that I am. I didn’t really realize it at the time, until the very fabric of that cloak of identity began to…

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Children, Faith, Family, Growth, Love

Beautiful Noise

My crashing efforts at motherhood sound more like the wild banging of a raggle-taggle band of children, beating crazy and hard on tin cans with wooden spoons, it sounds like recorders mashing their plastic notes together in a mess of jumbled tunes and mixed rhythms. I thought it would be different. I thought it would…

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Children, Faith, Family, Grace

Stumbling Through Grace

The glass bowl and macaroni fly from mischievous hands.  The shattering sound startles the others, and me, as they look on in shock and I in contempt. This baby, my fourth, has broken more glass than any of the other three before her. She’s got an arm, that is for certain Macaroni and cheese lay…

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Children, Faith, Family, Love

Transitions

This morning when I woke up it struck me hard and unexpectedly. I don’t have any more babies. I won’t have any more babies. The shower water washed over me, and thoughts, swirling, mixed up moments, snippets of the past 7 years all fought for my attention. True, It has only been 3 months since…

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Faith, Family, Love

Not Nothing

Hearing him say those words broke me. “I feel like nothing.” Like getting punched in the stomach, punched in the heart.  What causes a child of only 7 short years, to say such a thing? I know the answer. I have known the answer for a long, long time. I have felt that feeling before.…

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