Faith, Growth, Loss, Praise, Prayer

When All Seems Lost

  Seeing the destruction from last night’s storms ignites memories and scratches at old scars.   How do we make sense of these kinds of things? So many people affected, so many lives changed forever in a moment, without warning, without time to prepare. And how does one really prepare for the smashing of a…

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Faith, Grace, Growth, Prayer, Scripture

Where Does my Help Come From?

Mid-week and already my tank runs near empty. Shoulders sag with the weight of it all, I will lift up my eyes to the mountains; ?From where shall my help come? Wild, spring fevered children, school lessons incomplete, monthly menu planning undone, late nights cleaning out, cleaning up, cleaning… My help comes from the Lord,…

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Children, Faith, Family, Growth, Love

Love Letters

I slip into their room, long after the giggling and wild rumpus has settled, the heavy breathing, slow and dreaming, is finally the only sound.  I place their notebooks on the floor, in plain sight. One for each of them, they will be excited to see them in the morning, these love letters we write.…

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Faith, Grace, Growth, Scripture

Repetition

I found myself stumbling through Leviticus last night and after just a few minutes of reading, I said to myself, “wait, didn’t I just read that?” So I kept reading, and there is it was again, I am the Lord your God, who brought you out of the land of Egypt to give you the…

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Children, Faith, Family, Grace, Growth

Moving So Fast

Days race past, and they grow like weeds, these children, these little versions of us. Wasn’t I just rocking and nursing this one to sleep, I think to myself as I fluff her silky hair? And now she runs, never walks, but RUNS as fast as her tiny feet will carry her. And I shake…

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Faith, Family, Grace, Growth

Identity Crisis

What happens when part of your identity is revealed to be a lie? Who are you then? For years I allowed my identity to be defined by things other than who Christ says that I am. I didn’t really realize it at the time, until the very fabric of that cloak of identity began to…

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Children, Faith, Family, Growth, Love

Beautiful Noise

My crashing efforts at motherhood sound more like the wild banging of a raggle-taggle band of children, beating crazy and hard on tin cans with wooden spoons, it sounds like recorders mashing their plastic notes together in a mess of jumbled tunes and mixed rhythms. I thought it would be different. I thought it would…

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Faith, Grace, Growth, Love

Exile

I was only 18 when God first ushered me out into the wilderness. I was eighteen and full of hope, joy, excitement- anticipation of life outside of the nest. I had not looked at many schools. I had selected just this one, one that I felt with all of my young heart, that God was…

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