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Enough


Today it rained outside and in.

I cried three times before lunch. And then again somewhere between 4 and 5PM

My four year old broke a glass during snack time.

At one point today I had six children in my care.

We watched TV instead of tackling math. I folded eight loads of laundry with GiGi chattering on on the big screen over my right shoulder.

I hid out as well as a stay at home mom of four can when it’s too wet to send the kids out and too noisy to manage inside.

My mind drifted to the beach in Michigan, and to the filthy streets of Haiti or some other foreign land where suffering looks a whole lot different than it does here. I needed perspective today and it was hard to find it.

We muddled through the afternoon with a break in the rain long enough to sit outside, I scratched out a blog post due for another site while the kids whacked sticks and smeared wet sidewalk chalk across the back patio. I broke up three disagreements in fifteen minutes, and sighed exasperated each time, for different reasons.

Β Some days it’s just enough to limp through to bed time.

We managed dinner and baths and stories and prayers and I wrung my hands out at the 7:30 mark, relived that they were all in bed so early, and guilty for being relieved.

This is just one hard day–

Of course they don’t all look like this.

Today, everything was enough, and enough felt like a bit too much.

Tomorrow we’ll try again. We’ll start over with the best of intentions–

 

Joining Lisa-Jo and fabulous others for a five minute write, the prompt this week is enough. Join us?

0 thoughts on “Enough

  1. I completely understand that! Here’s hoping your tomorrow (which is actually today – lol) is MUCH better! Thanks for sharing such honest thoughts. Happy weekend!

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  2. Oh Kris, it sounds like you and I lived the same day today, friend. Except for the laundry, I didn’t get any done.Thank you for this beautiful piece of writing, right down to wringing your hands over the guilty relief of bedtime.

    you are so lovely,
    Lisa-Jo

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    1. alwaysalleluia

      Lisa-Jo, we did live parallel lives yesturday. I am so thankful for your friendship and camaraderie, some days the mud flies and it gets ugly here in the trenches of motherhood, but the sun shines another day and we’re blessed even in the struggles! Love your heart!

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  3. thank you for honesty. great writing sister friend. and could u send just a little rain down to TX? We’re stuck inside due to extreme heat and man-eating mosquitos. πŸ˜‰ praying for a great Friday!

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    1. alwaysalleluia

      Praying the rain your way Heather, we were dry here too for weeks until yesturday! Praying the man-eating mosquitos away too! Scary! πŸ˜› Bless you, Mama!

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  4. Eight loads of laundry? You are amazing! I think I have 4 or 5 in baskets that need folding. I have my fill of these days, when I feel like it’s enough. And I too am a mom relieved some days when my kiddos are in bed. So thankful that I know the One who is enough to cover my weakness!

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  5. “Some days it’s just enough to limp through to bed time. ” Yes! I’m so glad to have you back writing, I missed you in June. This could’ve easily been my day today as we pack to go camping on the coast for 4 days. I’m already exhausted.

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    1. alwaysalleluia

      Thanks, Alia Joy. your encouragement is a gift!! Praying for your camping trip, may it be fun and restful and adventurous!

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    1. alwaysalleluia

      Oh Bless you, Laura. Thanks for the high five! Sending you one as well, because you’re awesome! Praying you enjoy a blessed day!!

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  6. Tracey Padgett

    Saw your post on FB yesterday about your day… Should have sent you some encouragement then. But please know now that I was whispering a prayer.

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  7. Amy Hunt

    All of it’s grace. Every speck of it. Praying you joy for yesterday on the other side, friend. And smiles today. Lots of ’em!

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    1. alwaysalleluia

      Yes, flagrant grace… thanks Amy for cheering me on, you’re a rock star in my world! praying your day is amazing and rdiant with the joy of Christ! XXOO

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    1. alwaysalleluia

      It’s dark dark outside, but Christ is here and already the day is brighter πŸ˜‰ Praying for you, Mary Beth!

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  8. Ro elliott

    oh..oh…I remember those days…the ring out the hands…the guilt that they were finally in bed…but I also remember…His mercies are new every morning…He is faithful…and He is enough…for we are never meant to be. Grace and blessing for this new day…

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  9. told you, sister friend…aged to perfection. πŸ˜‰

    And if I could, I’d come over and fold laundry till the basket ran dry. Even if it took me till next Tuesday.

    Even on your enough of days, His grace beams through. And those kids of yours are so blessed to see that. Even when it rains inside…
    {{{HUGS}}} Love you, Kris!

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    1. alwaysalleluia

      Oh Nikki, how I wish you lived close enough, not to do my laundry, but to come over sit and chat and sip tea and munch chocolates…. You are more of a blessing than you know. Love YOU! Praying for your day, may it be glorious and full of Christ’s peace!

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  10. Do you know how much I love you? Your honest mama-heart, your wringing hands, your overflowing laundry – all of it. Press into Jesus, my friend, and let loose. He can take it. I wish I was close enough to come get your kids and your laundry and your tears. Until October, consider this your online bear-hug. XOXO

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    1. alwaysalleluia

      *sniff* thank you, my friend. You’re a gift beyond all measure. Looking forward to talking with you soon! XXOO

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  11. TereasaM

    How did you get a picture of my couch? Oh friend, this has been a week of “enough” for me. Sometimes there just seems to be so much taking from us and yet, his grace is enough. He is all we need! Love your take on this word prompt!

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    1. alwaysalleluia

      Tereasa~ Your couch too, eh? Kindred sisters in Christ, that’s us. His grace is enough and I whisper that back to you, tuck it in and hold on to it as you make your way to the weekend. Blessings to you, sweet friend.

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  12. Ohhhh, this is all things true and delicate. Your words are lovely. You experience stark. Your insight, wise. Your vulnerability, perfect. So glad I came by. Loved this.

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      1. You are welcome. I was just sitting here thinking to myself how lucky I am (insert “blessed” interchangeably) that I stopped by on Friday. Because funny how it cannot be measured – the wisdom hidden in the depths of one another. The living sozo, Aching realness, declaring the flesh-weak rulers we wish we were not yet cannot pretend we aren’t. You are a fellow proclaimer. I admire that in you. And you now have a new comrade. I cannot wait to read more of you…of what He has to say through you.

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  13. His mercies are new every morning! It’s been a couple of these same days here in a row…every night so glad they’re in bed, feeling that guilt, hoping, praying the next day is better…but when it isn’t, I’m challenged to examine my attitude – as I just read on another 5 minute friday post, I have learned the secret of being content….love you Kris!

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    1. alwaysalleluia

      Yes, the sweet secret of contentment. In Christ alone. Thanks for the love and racers Lauren. It means so much…

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    1. alwaysalleluia

      Tammy, how grateful I am for your comraderie πŸ˜‰ I felt a bit naked posting these words but I have beeso comforted and encouraged by the many loving comments left here, yours is among them. Thank you, my friend. We’re in good company!

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  14. I just discovered your blog via Five Minute Friday (which I participated in for the first time!). I have read this post over a few times, feelilng comforted and encouraged. Look forward to reading more…thank you for writing and sharing your heart! PS My couch looks just like yours today, except not as much folded!

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    1. alwaysalleluia

      Melanie! So glad you chose to play along for five minute Friday. Don’t be a stranger πŸ˜‰ I look forward to connecting with you more here and there πŸ˜‰

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  15. “sighed exasperated… Some days it’s just enough to limp through to bed time…relieved that they were all in bed so early, and guilty for being relieved….enough felt like a bit too much.”

    yes, all this. I’m afraid that has been me, too, and I have been battling the guilt of it all. “But he gives us more grace” (James 4:6), and I am trying to cling to that. Praying the same for you, friend.

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    1. alwaysalleluia

      Erika- just pulling you in for a cyber hug. I know, and I understand and yes, there’s more than enough grace…. Love to you, my sweet friend. Praying for yu tonight, right now!

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  16. I may be slow on the uptake, but couldn’t resist the opportunity to give you a big hug. Loved seeing you on Lisa-Jo’s sidebar. Made my day πŸ™‚

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