I’ve been back from Allume for two and a half days. I’m not finished unpacking, physically, nor emotionally. I told you before I went that I’d learned a thing or two since going last year, and on some level, I think I carried unspoken expectations with me for what this year would be like. I tried not to, but I’m not even sure how to really have no expectations, so my humanity considered, I think I went as open and expectant as possible.
God was mostly quiet towards me ,but I saw Him big in the lives of others, which was both humbling and amazing.
I know some of you tweeted, texted and messaged me that you “couldn’t wait” to hear my thoughts on the experience, and I can share some, but some will be slow coming in the months ahead, I am sure.
It’s overwhelming being among 400 or so women who ‘get’ you, and your writer ways. I say overwhelming and I don’t mean it to sound negative–because it wasn’t. It’s just crazy to see so many who understand the life that processes through words. I know more than ever, if I never published anything ever, I’d still write. Writing is part of who I am and what I do to live, it doesn’t matter if no one ever reads another word I pen. God sees, and He knows, and this is His design for me. I’m grateful to have found rest in that space–I haven’t always felt this way.
If you missed Jessica’s Keynote, you must find a way to listen to it. She spoke directly to my heart, because we share a publishing dream that may or may not ever come true. This weekend, wandering among agents and editors and artists and wordsmiths, I felt a deep peace about my writing for the first time, in a long time.
God knows the path set before us. I can dream and I can hope, but above all this I must be obedient–to the call on my life, to the seasons I’m in, to my first love, which is the Word, not words.
Darren told a ridiculously incredible story about watching a little girl eat chocolate cake with her bare hands, and how we ought to pursue Christ the same way, he said, we should “put down the fork” and chase after Him with abandon. And that’s my take away.
Whatever foolishness I have let distract me in the past must be laid aside, in order for me to fully live for Christ.
Seek ye first the kingdom of God, and His righteousness, and all these things will be given unto you.(Matthew 6:33)
What are you seeking this season? Will you put down the fork and pursue Christ fully?
This is my initial reaction upon returning from Allume. I’ll have more to share in the coming weeks, but for now, my energies are focused elsewhere. Deadlines loom in the near future. Thank you for your prayers and for grace.