Allume, Community, Dreams, Growth, Passion

Go After Him

I’ve been back from Allume for two and a half days. I’m not finished unpacking, physically, nor emotionally. I told you before I went that I’d learned a thing or two since going last year, and on some level, I think I carried unspoken expectations with me for what this year would be like. I tried not to, but I’m not even sure how to really have no expectations, so my humanity considered, I think I went as open and expectant as possible.

God was mostly quiet towards me ,but I saw Him big in the lives of others, which was both humbling and amazing.

I know some of you tweeted, texted and messaged me that you “couldn’t wait” to hear my thoughts on the experience, and I can share some, but some will be slow coming in the months ahead, I am sure.

It’s overwhelming being among 400 or so women who ‘get’ you, and your writer ways. I say overwhelming and I don’t mean it to sound negative–because it wasn’t. It’s just crazy to see so many who understand the life that processes through words. I know more than ever, if I never published anything ever, I’d still write. Writing is part of who I am and what I do to live, it doesn’t matter if no one ever reads another word I pen. God sees, and He knows, and this is His design for me. I’m grateful to have found rest in that space–I haven’t always felt this way.

If you missed Jessica’s Keynote, you must find a way to listen to it. She spoke directly to my heart, because we share a publishing dream that may or may not ever come true. This weekend, wandering among agents and editors and artists and wordsmiths, I felt a deep peace about my writing for the first time, in a long time.

God knows the path set before us. I can dream and I can hope, but above all this I must be obedient–to the call on my life, to the seasons I’m in, to my first love, which is the Word, not words.

Darren told a ridiculously incredible story about watching a little girl eat chocolate cake with her bare hands, and how we ought to pursue Christ the same way, he said, we should “put down the fork” and chase after Him with abandon. And that’s my take away.

Whatever foolishness I have let distract me in the past must be laid aside, in order for me to fully live for Christ.

Seek ye first the kingdom of God, and His righteousness, and all these things will be given unto you.(Matthew 6:33)

What are you seeking this season? Will you put down the fork and pursue Christ fully?

This is my initial reaction upon returning from Allume. I’ll have more to share in the coming weeks, but for now, my energies are focused elsewhere. Deadlines loom in the near future. Thank you for your prayers and for grace.

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  1. I confess to being utterly jealous – i’d have loved to be there. Like you, I would write if no one ever read a word I wrote. Actually I’ve BEEN there. πŸ™‚ I was able to watch Sally Clarkson speak, I’ll have to see if the videos are still up on the website and watch the rest of them. Popping over from New Life Steward. Blessings from Croatia: A Little R & R:

    1. So glad you were able to hear Sally Clarckson speak. She is so gracious and wise. I continue to learn much from her about how to live and serve well, both as a mother, wife and writer. Bless you, kind friend.

  2. The processing of what we learn at conferences always takes a little longer then we expect. I love that He gave you a time of rest and encouragement friend. Maybe that is the biggest takeaway you could’ve received. Know that I am praying for you…lifting you up to Him…the One giving you the words. Blessings and much love.

  3. I just got off the phone with a friend whom I told “even if nobody reads it, I’d still write it.” And that’s it, isn’t it? The writer’s rite.

    I’m so glad you were able to attend the conference and that you felt PEACE about your writing life. You are so loved.

    1. The writers rite. Amen. Thank you for your sweet encouragement! I’m writing like a mad woman here, eager to slip it over to you for review. Thank you for praying–I would not be able to without your prayers! XXOO

  4. Patti

    Such a blessing to read your reflections. We are riding the same river of thought, though Relevant/Allume continue to be not part part of God’s plan for me (our daughter’s birthday falls on that weekend, and I am always a mama first). Understanding I am a writer at my very core, and pursuing Christ with abandon… these two things have been a persistent theme of my past two years. I’m thankful you shared, Kris.

  5. Hi Kris, Glad you are feeling encouraged about your writing. I just finished watching Darren’s talk, loved the story about that chocolate mud cake! I can understand what it feels like to have energies focused on your other project, I hope it is going well.

    1. Thanks, Mike, Darren’s talk was really a powerful highlight for me. I so love when a simple story like that grabs you by the heart and reminds you of the real truth of following Jesus. I am so glad you got a chance to listen to it! I pray you’re encouraged today! So grateful for your voice out here among so many others!

  6. lindseyfoj

    What I LOVE MOST about this post…is HOW I can hear YOUR voice as you write! That is my favorite! Thank you for sharing what I too felt this weekend! Much love!! Thank you for opening your doors to Annie and I to be roomies! It was FABULOUS!!

    1. Linsdey, You wrote here, the exact words I needed to hear, confirming that my “voice” is ok, and good enough as it is. How long have I wrestled to believe that?! Thank YOU for that encouragement, and for letting me be myself with you, honestly, I look forward to the day we can sit long and chat again, and maybe take a few more crazy photos. Love to you, my sweet friend, you’ve blessed me beyond measure!!!

  7. Christina@toshowthemjesus

    I so wanted to go to the conference so I am appreciative that you are sharing your thoughts here. I love the image of a child eating–I want to be that child! Praying that I will abandon myself to His purposes. Blessings!

    1. Christina, I pray someday you get the opportunity to attend, pray for it too, and God will answer according to His good purposes. Thank you for stopping by here today, praying you’d chase down Jesus with utter abandon, and let Him fill you up to overflowing! Bless you, sweet friend.

  8. I cannot tell you how thankful I am there is a way to listen to these awesome keynotes. I’ve listened to all but one…Ann’s, which I saved for last.

    (and that fork…abandon made my journal. we are so kindred!)

    I’ll hold your hand, friend, as I run wildly to Him. Every day.
    being who He made me to be is my starting line…

    Love you! Talk to you soon xoxo

  9. Hey Kris! One, it was so exciting to meet you! And I am with you…and Mary Beth. I have come back with a take-a-step-back attitude. Living in the here and now and with people I can actually touch is where I need to take a deeper look. And processing…processing for awhile for sure! πŸ™‚

  10. MomsMustardSeeds

    Yes – I was humbled and loved well…by many. I went with no expectations and left with a heart seeking God – while my dream is to share the beauty God has created in my life….while part of me would love to have that be through speaking or being published…I sit here knowing…if that dream never happens, HE has other dreams for me that will happen and it will be perfect and beautiful. And part of that dream…I already see…right here. With you…now my friend irl…in funny pictures, in your voice I can hear on this page….Love you, friend and I can’t wait to see what dreams he creates for us in this world. One thing is true, it is beautiful with you here.

  11. I can imagine how overwhelming it could be, especially for someone like me, who tends to get lost in the crowd. So thankful God accomplished His purposes in your going, many of which have yet to be made known. I do hope and pray He will provide me the opportunity to go one day as well. Blessings!

  12. Kris,

    YES! to what you said about “It’s just crazy to see so many who understand the life that processes through words!” And I love that in this space, we understand that, but additionally know that life-giving words come from the Giver of Life. It is a sweet space of lives and words and faces and hearts intersecting and I’m so glad that you are a part of this community!


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