On Asking And Receiving~ {Giveaway Winner Announced}

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I had put it out there, the sponsorship proposal was my ‘fleece’, if I was accepted for a sponsorship, it was meant to be. I submitted the required materials.

I prayed.

I waited.

The announcement was made.

I wasn’t accepted. 

I admit, I was a little disheartened. I really wanted to go. I really thought I was *supposed* to go. I reluctantly accepted this non-acceptance as the answer to my prayer.

I have been flopping around here, trying to figure out what exactly God wants from me with this whole blogging adventure. I had the desire to start writing again, not necessarily blogging, but just writing. The Blog was more His idea, than mine.  So I have spent the last few months trying not to be jealous of others who were going. I have been conscious to squash any strain of envy or sadness I have felt about not being a part of this event. It hasn’t been easy because everywhere I turn, the people I communicate most with online, well, they are all going to be there.

But I had made my peace with it.

During the last couple of months, there have been at least three different opportunities to purchase a ticket pointed out to me.  My Twitter friends would message me saying “hey so-and-so is selling their Relevant ticket, you should buy it!” And two if the times I contacted the sellers, and one time I did not. I had a mixed feeling each time, as if I was going against God’s plan. God had already spoken, didn’t he?  I didn’t get the sponsorship. That had been my prayer.

The thing is, even though I had originally prayed that, I still really wanted to go. Deep in my heart, I have still struggled with longing to be there.

Last Thursday, I woke up to an e-mail from someone offering me a chance to buy a ticket to Relevant. Tears fell without warning. I sniffed and wiped at my nose and eyes, really?!  And this offer wasn’t from someone who knew of someone selling a ticket, this offer, unlike the others, was a guaranteed ticket for me, if I wanted it.

I panicked. Was this just a test? Was I supposed to take it? Honestly, in the moment, I became completely confused. I cried. I called my Husband at work. I called my good friend. And she spoke words to me that months prior, in a similar situation, I had spoken to her.

“So let me get this straight-you’ve been praying to go…, and now you have a chance to go…, and you’re not sure if you should go?” I had to laugh a little. She was right. That had been exactly what I had said to her when she had been praying about wanting to go somewhere, and then was offered a chance to go.

I bought the ticket.

Then I bought a plane ticket.

And I am going to Relevant 11.

Thanks be to God. This is completely His doing. 

I have only been able to sit back in amazement at how God works. He has fulfilled this longing, this desire to be there, by literally swinging the door wide open for me, the door that I thought was closed and locked up.  He has put every piece into place and worked out every blessed detail, including providing help for my husband during the day so that my children will be cared for while he works.  I don’t know why I am so amazed. Do I really have such low expectations of God that something like this amazes me to this extent? Maybe I have lately.

I often forget to pray BIG. I often ‘forget’ that this is the same God who parted seas and raised people from the dead. Surely attending a conference is not so big a request.  And yet, I feared.

I doubted.

I failed to believe that He would make a way.

You will pray to him, and he will hear you,… Job 22:27

Counting on to my 1000 Gifts….

 588. Slowing down, remembering to laugh.

589. cleaning up, cleaning out.

590. reading the gift lists of others, seeing the countless blessings of God in the lives of those around me, a whole community giving thanks!

591. A busy week ahead, excitement growing.

592. Fall. My favorite time of year.

593. A Relevant Ticket with my name on it. Wow!

594. A husband who understands, who encourages, who loves without limits.

595. The gift list of my Best friend… learning to give thanks, to live choosing joy!

596. Healing happening in my foot.

597. An evening of Girl-time with my sweet, kindred friend.

A short list this week as my to-do list calls…..




0 thoughts on “On Asking And Receiving~ {Giveaway Winner Announced}

    1. Anonymous

      Thanks, Barbie. God is teaching me a great deal about trusting him and having faith these days…. Keep praying, friend! You never know!!

  1. Sometimes we can’t even begin to See that the desire alone is the gift; it’s the yes, it’s the go!

    Rich blessings as you receive Grace for yourself and just live in-joy, sweet Friend. 

    1. Anonymous

      I rarely see the desire as the gift… I don’t really know why…. but I am praying that God will show me His purposes, and help me to be present in the moments with Him. Blessings, sweet Amy.

  2.  and now, of course, you know that I’m the one who’s jealous. So many people whose words I heart, and whose hearts are so special, are going to be there. It’s the conference I wanted to go to. I’ll be going to Blissdom – but that’s so much bigger – and it’s so hard to find the faith bloggers – I knew at relevant they would all be faith bloggers – and like all the people who read me – and all those I read – Christian mommy bloggers 🙂 but then, there’s that no boys allowed sign – phhhtthhhttpppphhhh – so, when you get there, there are people I want you to meet – and I want you to hug their necks for me – and, of course, say nice things about me to each other 🙂 there is @mamahall and @WritingJoy and you and @fruitnseason, and @SomeGirlTweets, and @AmandaCLassiter and Sharon from Hiking toward home – grrrrrrrrrr – God bless (and I do believe that’s the first time I put a God bless next to a grrrrrrr)

    1. Anonymous

      I will do my best to find all of your friends and hug them and tell them how much you care, though your heart, so big- and always on the outside of you, they know how you feel already… I am sorry that you feel excluded from this, I will pray that Blissdom is a fantastic experience for you, and that God leads you to the faith bloggers there. God continue to bless you, Craig. You encourage others like it’s your job, and I am always so thankful for your kind thoughts, prayers and words!!

  3. Oh I am SO EXCITED for you!!!  I saw the tweets ~ they made me smile and laugh and only turn a little bit green.  🙂   I have so many friends going this year; so glad you’ll be able to learn and worship and soak it all up!  God is so good, and His timing is perfect, always.  Doing cartwheels for you!


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