Faith, Grief, Guest posting, Journey, The Cultivating Project

Remember God

Sometimes, when I close my eyes, snapshot-memories of my childhood sneak up on me. Today, I saw myself, nine years old, pumping my spindly legs back and forth on the old metal swing set left behind by previous owners of that house. I swung, face pointed towards the cornfield that flanked the back of the…

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Guest posting, Surrender

On Surrender

Then Jesus told his disciples, “If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever would save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake will find it.  For what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world…

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GraceTable, Obedience, Surrender

Whither Shall I Follow

Follow Him simply wherever He may lead you and you will not have to think up big plans to bring about your perfection. Your new life will begin to grow naturally. I know you want to see the road ahead rather than trusting God. If you continue this way, the road will get longer and…

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Lent, Surrender

Now Is The Time

Struggle and loss punctuated the joy of our Advent season. We moved through Epiphany in a haze of grief and acceptance, mingling with expectation and restoration. And here, we find ourselves entering this contemplative, reflective season of Lent, with a new hope we’d abandoned back in December. Time is a strange thing. Winter hangs on…

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Grief, Struggle, Surrender

Where Is My Rage, Safe?

The other day after listening to my friend recount a recent wounding at the hands of another, I felt the familiar surge of indignation rise in my gut. I quoted back to her the 6th verse of Psalm 58, O God, break the teeth in their mouths; tear out the fangs of the young lions,…

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Growth, Hope, Struggle, Surrender

When It’s A Slow Transfiguration

A week ago I sunk my toes into the sugar-white sands in Destin, and tried hard to release the junk I’d carried with me to the sea. I wanted a transfiguration moment. I wanted a soul-shattering revelation that would send me home altered forever. I went there bone-dry, weary and in need of healing. But…

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Rest

On Fighting Resistance And Leaning Into Rest

We sit on the deck overlooking the mountains, my girls blowing bubbles around me in a swirl of iridescent colors. The air is damp, a breeze shifts the bubbles this direction, then that way. The evening is as close to perfect as I could have imagined, watching the sun slip behind a veil of thick…

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