Growth, Prayer

  Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and eat with him, and he with me. Revelation 3:20                                   I draw breath in…

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Faith, Growth, Loss, Praise, Prayer

When All Seems Lost

  Seeing the destruction from last night’s storms ignites memories and scratches at old scars.   How do we make sense of these kinds of things? So many people affected, so many lives changed forever in a moment, without warning, without time to prepare. And how does one really prepare for the smashing of a…

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Faith, Grace

The Lamb

We sit, gathered there around a table, and floodgates threaten to burst. Lips tremble and fingers, white with anxiety, blood cold and slow to flow, we are afraid to be real. This moment, an opportunity to bare it all- to let the ugly spill out like the guts from a freshly slaughtered lamb.  To stand…

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Faith, Grace, Growth, Scripture

Repetition

I found myself stumbling through Leviticus last night and after just a few minutes of reading, I said to myself, “wait, didn’t I just read that?” So I kept reading, and there is it was again, I am the Lord your God, who brought you out of the land of Egypt to give you the…

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Children, Faith, Family, Grace, Growth

Moving So Fast

Days race past, and they grow like weeds, these children, these little versions of us. Wasn’t I just rocking and nursing this one to sleep, I think to myself as I fluff her silky hair? And now she runs, never walks, but RUNS as fast as her tiny feet will carry her. And I shake…

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Faith, Family, Grace, Growth

Identity Crisis

What happens when part of your identity is revealed to be a lie? Who are you then? For years I allowed my identity to be defined by things other than who Christ says that I am. I didn’t really realize it at the time, until the very fabric of that cloak of identity began to…

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Faith, Grace, Growth, Love

Exile

I was only 18 when God first ushered me out into the wilderness. I was eighteen and full of hope, joy, excitement- anticipation of life outside of the nest. I had not looked at many schools. I had selected just this one, one that I felt with all of my young heart, that God was…

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Children, Faith, Family, Love

Transitions

This morning when I woke up it struck me hard and unexpectedly. I don’t have any more babies. I won’t have any more babies. The shower water washed over me, and thoughts, swirling, mixed up moments, snippets of the past 7 years all fought for my attention. True, It has only been 3 months since…

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