Hope, Prayer

When You’re Convinced The Sky Is Empty

July 18, 2012

I’ve prayed hard prayers for years and when the ground scratches dry under my feet and the dust of bitter emptiness swirls thick, some days I think I might just give up.

I know He’s always listening but when the months span and the years stretch out too long and the silence deafens, my humanness snarks that He’s not going to budge.  The hiss that condemns, whips me with antiChrist words–“your prayers fall on deaf ears”.

Sylvia Plath said “I talk to God but the sky is empty” and on my worst days, I almost swallow this lie. But my heart, cracked up as it is, knows better than to subscribe to hopelessness. I tuck His truths in deep and they sustain me over the long desert of waiting.

Then, without warning, I hear thunder in the distance. It’s just a handful of words–a banner of hope strung up, flapping in the wind . It’s an unexpected phone call, a precious letter that I didn’t see coming–lightning rips through the heavens and one overwhelming droplet the size of a monsoon lands in my inbox.

I want to measure its’ impact and set my rain guage out to determine if it’s enough but who can measure the magnitude of answered prayers?

It’s not the deluge I’m praying for but it’s more than enough, because that’s what it always is when it slips down from heaven. Heaven and earth split for one moment and this one drip nourishes the prayers I’d nearly stopped praying. He reminds me, “never give up on Me”. 

His word is good and unfailing–He moves in His time and not to the impatient time table of my own over-eager clock, He can be trusted with our hearts–I’m learning this anew daily.

The sky is anything but empty–I know this as I read and re-read the words printed there in black and white.

We Jesus lovers pray because in praying there’s hope. We look for the unseen and trust that He not only hears but answers according to His glorious riches in Christ Jesus (Philippians 4:19).

He knows what you need.

The sky bulges with answers yet to come. Prayers begin to roll out of my heart–marbles let loose from a bag.

What do you need from God these days? 

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  • http://www.inspiredtoaction.com/ Kat @ Inspired To Action

    Just beautiful!!

    • alwaysalleluia

      Thanks, Kat. I am so honored to see your face and words in my comment box! What a gift!

  • Southern Gal

    Visiting from Hello Mornings! group. I love your words here. Looking forward to stretching and growing in the group.

    • alwaysalleluia

      Thanks so much, southern gal 😉 It is lovely to *meet* you here.

  • http://newlifesteward.com/ Mary Beth

    Oh I needed this reminder today! I’m still stewing over not writing that eBook as fast as I would like. I had planned to write yesterday morning and I napped instead–but that is what I needed. I’m trusting anew in His promise to give us the desire of our hearts in His timing!

    PS I host a linkup on Wednesdays called WIP (Work in Progress) Wednesday. I’d love for you to join us!

    • alwaysalleluia

      I know the feeling, Mary Beth. Always in His timing… He can be trusted with delivering right on time.

      • http://newlifesteward.com/ Mary Beth

        Thanks for linking up at WIP Wednesday! We had a short sun shower on my way home from picking up my son at Mother’s Day Out. Reminded me of you and God’s promise to answer prayer!

  • http://twitter.com/lifesurrendered Michele-Lyn

    Oh, I am just soaking this in this morning…

    • alwaysalleluia

      😉 Praying your day is blessed and rich today!

  • http://annieathome.com Annie | annieathome.com

    Celebrating that banner of hope and the big ‘ole drop of rain with you, Kris!

    • alwaysalleluia

      *waving* thanks, Annie. I hope you are doing well and enjoying the summer sun and slower pace.

  • http://simplystriving.wordpress.com/ Nikki

    We’re neighbors over at WIP Wednesday….and I know I would have read this anyway — later this afternoon. But I needed it now.

    Thanks for being a splash on my soul today, Kris.

    Holding you up in prayer, friend.

    • alwaysalleluia

      ((hugs)) Nikki. Sending you big hugs and wishing we could sneak off for coffee and a good heart-talk. praying for you my friend.

  • http://scribingthejourney.com/ Duane Scott

    You write so beautifully… Seriously!

    This is just poetry.
    “Heaven and earth split for one moment and this one drip nourishes the prayers I’d nearly stopped praying. He reminds me, “never give up on Me”. ”

    I love that. We need rain here so badly that I’ll pray for that drop.

    • alwaysalleluia

      It’s drier than dirt here too. The ground outside bares the deep cracks or dehydration. Praying for rain with you–a literal and spiritual deluge to wash us right clean. Thanks for your kind words. They humble me.

  • Wynnegraceappears

    Wow, just amazed by the beauty and truth your words are today. They bless me in deep places. Kris, this is so raw and tender and real. I’m hopping over from Duane’s as I saw you there and then I was thankfully lead here. Bless your pen as you continue to write, and may His blessing pour about in abundance.

    • alwaysalleluia

      So glad you stopped by, my friend. I need your prayers and am so thankful for your encouragement. You too, keep writing, your words are so beautiful.

  • http://www.gettingdownwithjesus.com/ dukeslee

    I love the strength of that last image … of a sky bulging with answers, swollen with the grandeur of God. Thank you.

    • alwaysalleluia

      Jennifer~ Such a pleasant thing, seeing you here in my little comment line up. You always encourage and inspire. I like to think of the sky bulging with answers too. I can’t imagine not.

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    “It’s not the deluge I’m praying for but it’s more than enough,because that’s what it always is when it slips down from heaven.” I love your honesty here. I know the feeling of praying and praying and feeling like nothing is coming. But you’re right. Just like the thunder I hear as I type this, God is speaking and always working!

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      Bless you, Katie. He IS always working, isn’t He? I apt to forget sometimes. thankfully, He never does.

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  • Jes

    I love the way you said, “But its more than enough because that’s what it always is when it slips down from heaven.” <3 God is showing me some of these same truths lately and I'm relishing in the arms of a Great and Loving God, may He bless your spirit!

  • http://fruitinseason.blogspot.com Christine- Fruit in Season

    Beautiful. You have such a way of bringing all to good again, after sharing your own fears and struggles. Such hope in this post!